I was so sad because of DAS:VASSER’s break-up, I didn’t even notice that my Third Stage order arrived o_O I’m still sad (and will be even more so on Feb 16) but I thought that trying to cheer myself up with some brand new music would be a good thing. It really helped, kind of. I’m actually stunned by Kagerou’s new maxi. I looove it, especially the last track which is a ballad but so damn cool in a Kagerou-ish way. Each of the songs has something special about them, they are a bit more toned-down compared to the stuff on ‘full course’ but I love it nevertheless. The ballad came a bit as a surprise. (Have the done one before? I can’t think of one right now… I think it’s their first.) It’s such a cool song, not cheesy at all, and with a great ending (it becomes slower and slower unil it stops) and it instantly makes you (or me, at least) want to sing along with Dai-kun.
The packaging is very cool, too. It comes in an orange jewel case which suits the CDs title (’Iromegane to Scandal’), it’s actually like the coloured glass of the glasses (iromegane). There’s a see-through, yellow-orange foil thing in the case, if you take that out and put it over the white booklet you’re able to see the full cover: the title and little cartoon pics, which you cannot see when they are in the case because the foil and the case are both orange (em, do I make any sense? ^^;). On the white booklet cover there’s only a May fly (kagerou) and when you put the foil thing on it, it looks like the May fly’s wearing glasses ^-^ Very cool, very cool.

Blah. The bad news seem to keep coming in: DAS:VASSER will hold their last live at Meguro Live Station on February 16. I wish I could be there ;_; I’ll miss them ;________; I just hate disbandments.

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I’ve just learned that Astrid Lindgren died this morning ;________; God bless her, she was such a wonderful writer.

I’m scared o_O It’s raining pretty (as in: really really) heavily. And there’s a storm, too. I hope I’ll survive this. (Yesterday, a woman got killed by a falling tree… well, she went out jogging, in a huuge storm… o_O sports kill, I tell ya.)

Oh well. All university issues have been solved. Japanese and media studies, those’ll be my two main courses. Unfortunately, they only take 44 new students in media studies, they only take the ones with the best grades… I’m not worried really, because my grades aren’t that bad after all. After two years I’ll get the chance to study in Japan for a year. (The amount of scholarships is limited, I hope I’ll get one…) That year should give me enough time to find a job there.

My Shoxx came earlier today. Only two pages of Kagrra with only one group pic ;_; (But it’s really pretty so I won’t complain too much.) I flipped it through just once, but I think this issue isn’t particularly interesting. Most of the bands I like end up being on black&white pages so the pictures are just half the fun.

I’m still collecting pics for the Mist of Rouge page’s layout. I hope Yenbanya still has those MoR demotapes I wanted to order. Third Stage is too expensive for used stuff so I’m going to try out Yenbanya’s services. The change of Yenbanya being worse than Brand X is below zero. Things can only get better.

Gotta go. (Someone just has to try and hold the roof together, no one likes rain on their precious precious CDs and books, especially when the CDs and books are expensive imports from Japan ne?)

Bwahaha, Kagrra have postponed the 2nd press of Irodori but will release a 2nd press of Sakura instead… with one bonus track. The good thing (and the reason I’m happy) about this is that Sakura is a bit cheaper than Irodori so buying the 2nd press won’t hurt that much. (The bad thing is, I own both Sakura and Irodori and I don’t see any point in having two copies of the same album. Bonus tracks eh, they’re the evil in the world >_<)

I’ve been thinking a lot about that Mist of Rouge site I want to make, lately. I think it would be cool if I could make it some knid of twin site project: one would be the MoR site and the other a GARDEN site. Both bands have quite a lot in common (both on Matina, they have had little projects together, released Matina special omnibus stuff together). The problem is, though, that MoR have grown more and more on me because they have become so much better with every release of theirs. Unfortunately, it’s quite the opposite with GARDEN: I loved their early releases but I’m not too fond of their latest stuff. I guess, I’ll wait for Vividarium, GARDEN’s soon to be released 2nd mini album, and I’ll decide on that twin site thing depending on whether I like the album or not. (I know I shouldn’t babble too much about my projects… I’ll really start working on them soon, though ^^;)

You know, sometimes I spent like 2 weeks with Photoshop and various images and I come up with nothing. Sometimes, though, it takes me just 2 hours to do something like this. It looks surprisingly alright o_O I didn’t know I was still able of having a little bit of fun with PS. I’m feeling quite, um, productive today^^;

…I also deleted ‘that old page of mine’ because I haven’t updated or even looked at it for eleven months. So there you go.

Yesterday I got a call from a friend of Syuki’s who had ordered with us from Brand X and she told me that one CD she had ordered wasn’t in the package I sent her o_O And then I checked all those old emails from Syuki and it turns out she didn’t order it o_O Oh well… at least it wasn’t my fault -_-;

You can now pre-order this year’s Expect Rush issue… the pre-order deadline is March 8th, so it will probably come out late March/early April… and it comes with a CD-Rom *_* I’ve already told my mother about it (the hyper person I am… sometimes) and she said that’ll make a nice birthday present (for me, not my mother ^^;) ^_____^ I hope there will be profiles of Mist of Rouge in there because there are none anywhere on the net… I don’t even know their bloodtypes ;_; …I’m still determined to make a website for them, though, because they are really really good and I want more people to listen to them and not… say, Fatima -_- What an overrated band that is >_<

I’ll pick up where I left off last time:
Me being the authistic I am, I’m scared of things changing. I get used to new things very very slowly, and I’m usually quite scared of any changes to my life before they happen. I spend endless nights wondering about the outcome of things and I’m always expecting the worst. I think this is the most comfortable way for – not to expect too much – because things most of the time do not happen as bad as I imagined them to, but it also means that I need a lot of time to make ‘life-changing’ decisions because I always ask myself if what I plan to do will turn out fine and will change my life for the better. And as chosing a university and your courses will have an absolutely great impact on my life and change it in a way that nothing else has probably changed it, I’m really really hesitant about making that final decision.
I think that I can already say that right now I have finally come to that final decision. Just because… it feels right. Up to now, most of the things in my life have gone the way I wanted them to (eventhough it took me ages to make certain decisions -_-;;) and I’m convinced that I’ll be fully satisfied with my choice of uni/courses once I’m actually there and have started studying. I hate waiting for new things to happen. My weeks and months are filled with impatience and insecurity and that makes me not just a little bit nervous, no, it gives me headaches. Someone just shoot me, please.